Letter to a friend, part 1...

Just as a note, the only reason that I have not sent this letter to her is that I have way too much love and respect for 2 people in my life, and there would be a very serious negative backlash as a result of my thoughts, feelings and opinions, which is actually pretty sad, as this has absolutely nothing to do with them... I will never send this letter, unless there is an event which makes it okay. (I doubt and hope not because it would be a very bad thing...)

I feel better just writing it. For so long I made myself not care, but recently I have been really angry, and now I'm starting distance my feelings again.

I'm sure that she, nor any of her family members or 'friends' read this, or I wouldn't post it. I may not post the whole thing, just in case.

Here it is, part 1:

Dear "W",

It's been awhile since we've seen each other or talked, I guess it was in about January or February, (aside from your Grandfather’s funeral,) I thought it went fine, we all drank and had fun, but apparently not. Haven't heard from you since, and under the circumstances, I assumed, (perhaps wrongly) that you should have contacted me.

I thought it would be a good idea to let you know how this all went down to me. This letter will be a good discussion point for you and your family. Enjoy. (Be sure to read through the whole thing first, you’ll have to delete some things that you don’t want your parents’ to know.)

I knew that there were problems between you and "X", that was pretty obvious. Of course I listened to X and was as good as a friend as I could be (she did lose a boyfriend and what I perhaps wrongly assumed was a best friend in pretty close timeframe). It never occurred to me to really judge you. Of course I heard stories and gossip, some I couldn't even believe, as I never thought I could be friends with someone so mean spirited and cold hearted. However, I tried to keep the rumors at an arm's length and just continue to be a friend to someone in need. A truly good person who was going through a bad time. I didn't realize that I was choosing sides. I was really disappointed when I heard a story from someone who I thought was completely out of the loop about you hating on X… I’ve had some other disappointments since…

I thought that this was a great time in your life. You finally left a job that you hated for so long; you were pursuing passions dear to you. You were busy literally 5 or six nights a week. I never thought to hound you and ask you why you hadn't called, or where you had been. I never called you 'Sparrow' as you have done to busy friends over the years... I assumed that you were very happy, planning for your sister's wedding, Karate, French classes, German classes, and hanging with the family.

I was a little disappointed when I heard through the grapevine that you had a boyfriend, only because I thought that this would be something that you would like to share with me. Instead, you approached me at your sister's wedding reception to give me the 'heads up'. No problem, we're busy people with full lives.

I liked him right away. I thought he was good looking, charming and funny. He seemed very attached to you even at such a big family event. It must be serious, I thought. How awesome for you, about time, you deserve it!

Before leaving, I invited you to come over the next week-end for a little get together, and you did. Although you didn't stay long, due to a Karate tournament the next day, (no problem, I understood,) it was nice to see you, and he impressed me even further; greeting everyone with a handshake, and watching the UFC with complete strangers on the couch while we sat at the table with the girls and chatted. How nice. You looked like a great couple!